Skinny girl where art thou?

OK so I appear to be absolutely naff at this blogging lark of late, despite putting myself out there on my last thread claiming I was going to change - now how many times have I promised THAT over the years ;)

Here's where I am now:
I didn't start my P90X/Turbofire hybrid the other Monday because my sister came up from England with her family and I knew that we'd be out pretty much during all daylight hours. My sister loves to walk and so that's what we did and I have to admit I probably saw more of the county I have lived in for the past 9 years in those 5 days than I ever have before.
Anyway I digress:
I was then supposed to start this Monday just gone but I managed to develop Tonsillitis :(  a sore throat :(  and now a minor cold which has flared up my asthma :(  Basically any kind of exercise that makes me take deep breaths leaves me in coughing fits that make me feel as though I have ripped open my Oesophagus and pulled out my lungs :(
So, right now I'm doing whatever I have to do to recover asap to get this new hybrid on the road.

I also planted a couple of widgets to the right hand side of my page.
There's no point rolling your eyes people Christmas is still gonna be just around the corner - 55 days to be exact  (say it in days and it doesn't sound as close as  8 weeks does it).
Anyway the second widget is for my holiday to Jamaica. It's been about 3 years since we have been on holiday and we're lucky to be going with the same friends we went with on our last holiday. These friends live in England so we never get to see them really so we're really looking forward to January.
The problem for me is my weight - of course!  I don't know about you guys but I never buy new clothes. I either feel guilty spending the money or I convince myself there's no point as I'm gonna lose weight. Do you guys do that?
Well, the problem is that I tried on my lovely holiday clothes the other day and not one of them fits :( Not even the jeans I wore last year :(  Which is strange really cos I don't feel bigger than last year - guess it's called denial.
So I have a grand total of 84 days to fit into those clothes. I have no idea how much I need to lose in weight for that to happen cos I have no idea what I weighed last time I wore them. All I do know is that I thought I was fat back then. Well, I'm even fatter now.
So, 84 days, which equates to about 12 weeks to lose this belly. Can it be done? Well it's either that or I'm going on holiday with no holiday clothes :(

I'm a 'weightloss blog' fraud.

Wow, I've been severely absent from blogging for ages haven't I!
I have no excuses really except to say that I feel like a weight loss fraud!  I started this blog with every intention of posting regular updates of my weightloss journey, my dabble in extreme workouts and the odd informative piece thrown in for good measure.
I started off well , as do we all - I posted, I worked out, I checked out other blogs and I interacted - so what went wrong?
Well I found that the more I failed in my weight loss journey the less I enjoyed posting about it, I mean nobody enjoys posting about their failures do they? And anyway even if I did enjoy such self flagulation who would want to read it? I basically got sick of hearing myself explaining - once again - why I hadn't eaten correctly and / or lost weight.

So what do I have to post now that is so different?
Erm nothing actually - sorry! I haven't lost weight - at least I don't think I have ( I haven't weighed myself in weeks) and I'm once again eating the chocolate I managed to wean myself off of.
But the one constant I have found is 'Insanity'. Nope not the mental kind, though granted Insanity does seem to be a requirement of getting through life but I digress, I'm talking the extreme workout, Shaun T kind of Insanity. The very same workout that leaves you in buckets of sweat, hauling your sorry ass off the floor and looking forward to the next days torture - THAT 'Insanity'
At least it had been a constant until last week when I finally had to admit that I needed to rest for a week because the jumps, squats and lunges were more than my poor knee could cope with. I got sick of having to butt slide up and down the stairs and looking like a 90 year old trying to get off the sofa!
So I have a big decision to make!
On Monday my knee will be rested enough to start working out again. I only have 2 weeks left of Insanity (3 weeks if I repeat last weeks miss) but do I do this and risk knackering the knee again or do I change the programme?
I know, I know, it should be an easy decision, who wants pain right? But I love 'Insanity' and I cannot imagine not doing it. This workout has an uncanny ability to hook you and if it wasn't for my knee I would do it over and over again.
So what's the alternative? Well I need the cardio but without the Plyo which tends to involve alot of high jumps in the air (no good for the knee) and I'd also like to include some weights. So, I could do another extreme workout - 'P90X' for weights & Yoga and then include some 'TurboFire' for the cardio.
I'm quite excited about a new challenge but I don't want to let go of Insanity!!! Aaaaaaargh, it's too hard!
OK, as decisions go it's hardly life or death I know and if this is the biggest decision I have to make in life then my life is either boring or ridiculous but I still have to decide...................

I'll let y'all know on Monday what I decide :)